The Luminary Journal
By Tuaca Kelly The weather couldn’t receive a complaint from me. The day possessed a warmth and grace that may have included the presence of California Grey Whales – just off the Big Sur, California coastline where I was standing at the time. I was 24-years old, outside in nature under the canopy of daylight stretching my legs. The stretch – to open my abductor muscles – is one I had executed numerous times in my martial art dojo and, at least for me, took some time to melt into despite intention or repetition. While ‘breathing’ through the exercise, a man (that would become one of my deeply valued craniosacral teachers) walked up to me, pointed his penetrating blue eyes directly into mine and said, without affect or apology: “It will always hurt.” Then he left my sphere of determination as smoothly as he arrived. His words found their reason immediately. I knew what he meant. I recognized it as truth. And in the following moments I would both accept and question the poetry I was gifted with. Life, and the growing pains therein, would have many experiences including bliss and discomfort; to concede was to quell suffering. I continued with my stretching to earn my way across the threshold. Years later… Late one night I felt an incredible force vibrate in my throat then fill my mouth. A bewildering interest consumed me as the rising pressure quickly inflated my cheeks. I could not contain whatever divinity was destined to emerge. Lead by a single plosive “puh” sound was an unrelenting stream of language. I began what is known as Praying in Tongues. My grandmother, also an intuitive woman of faith, had prayed in tongues. I never saw her do it, but I knew on the day she crossed over, in the moments I held her while her spirit ascended to ‘no in-between’, that I would have my own experience. And so it began. Although I’d not witnessed it before, I knew exactly what was happening. My body heat rose with the unprecedented message and the velocity in which it came. I was listener, conduit and observer simultaneously. Completely conscious I had the wherewithal to get my iPod and record what I could. As this incredible mix of consonants and vowels were pushing forth, I also understood what was being said. There was instantaneous translation. The key points from that message were to humans, about humans verbatim: “You make it so hard on yourselves. It doesn’t have to be so hard. We’re here to help.” The praying continued untimed. I was awestruck, grateful, fascinated and reverent. Today… Is a perfect moment to annihilate any preconceived notions about expansion of consciousness, transformative healing, growth and the process of becoming: it is work; it is one of the most valuable investments an individual can choose to make; and it can be absolutely excruciating and exhausting at times. Have no illusions about ‘spirituality’ for all emotions and experiences are integral to growth, to building character, to showing ourselves the individual one aspires to see and realize in the actions and thoughts they value. This isn’t to say we have to suffer or go against the direction of ease. There is help and becoming a martyr isn’t the wish of the Sacred – but an educational fate for some, nonetheless. There is always an opportunity to shift course while headed toward a particular goal, to appreciate the hurdles with a new perspective, to accept their characteristics along with your ability and difficulties in learning to surmount them. To echo the essence of the messages that were transmitted and downloaded to me in my schools of wisdom: life is experience, a precious one, and there is a peculiar relief in the act of confessing to the ardent or idealistic mind: it will always hurt and there is always help. Be gentle with yourself and others. Homework: 1. Listen to the ‘hurt’. Growing or building muscles (for example) comes with a price: you’re tearing muscle fiber each time you breach a new weight threshold. This maybe considered by some as a ‘good hurt’. If the pain has a different quality pay close attention to make sure you’re not causing unnecessary injury. In other words: do no harm. 2. Ask for help. When a something is beyond your depth, stop, do nothing, see what comes. The next step maybe to ask for help. It is important to recognize boundaries in any profession or relationship. (This builds integrity!) 3. Have something to look forward to. Your vitality is related to your creativity and desire to grow. Make tangible plans for your self in which you can measure, validate and consciously breathe through the experience, (e.g., playing tennis with a friend once a week; take a language course; join a book club; meditate each day. 4. Applaud your accomplishments. No matter how trivial the task may seem, acknowledge its completion and your care in performing it. This builds a positive attitude, alters your own brain chemistry and raises your energy. When have you moved through pain and what did you learn from it? How do you recognize when you need help and how did you ask for it? Have you made yourself alone with a problem? What was the outcome? To place hurdles on your path on purpose to create challenges? Please share. Etiquette: Only mature and constructive comments directly related to the article’s topic are welcome. Published: June 30, 2014 Tuaca Kelly, spiritual teacher, medical intuitive and master healer serves to assist others in recognizing and developing their multidimensional consciousness and health, critical thinking skills, intuitive discernment, and realizing their soul potential. She lives in the Netherlands with her wife. For further insight visit: www.lovethemessenger.com The Luminary Journal
By Tuaca Kelly Years ago I met a man – Howard I’ll call him – that had been a practicing spiritual medium for nearly 30-years. He came into his own awareness of other levels of consciousness after a teenage drug overdose. When his spirit was leaving his body, it did so in a way that wasn’t nurturing or comforting. It just felt ‘wrong’. Though he was looking for an exit from the depression and isolation he felt frequently in earth life, he realized that suicide wasn’t going to provide that relief. He immediately determined to return to his body. From this experience he would make the changes he needed to survive, reassemble and redirect his focus to find his purpose. Though Howard had come a considerable way since his death experience, and helped many others in his professional practice, the information of his teenage trauma and all the pain that contributed to it, was still present in his system. Those stored experiences influenced his personal behavior significantly and many of his interactions were interlaced with shame. Howard subsisted largely on junk food, used non-beneficial substances ritually and frequently engaged in bare sexual activity with strangers. He was reckless. Note: Before every session I meditate and pray as a way to prepare myself for work. I do this for many reasons (that may exceed the scope of this journal) including to fortify my ability to discern (information, influences and boundaries.) I must be emphatic here: this practice is paramount! My guides brought many things to my awareness regarding Howard’s process, including my level of involvement. As much as I can see, feel and hear benevolent beings influencing and informing an individual, I can discern the unsavory and usurious entities that also exist. Seeing also the latter kind in Howard’s field, as not the sole but indeed a main contributor to his own demise, I approached him directly with care: “How do you protect yourself?” I asked. “Girl, I tell my guides to protect me,” he replied. His response modeled the casual manor in which he took most things and it concerned me. Howard assumed that his responsibility to establish healthy boundaries was not his, but his guides. I told him of my concern but he gave no credence much less interest. His investment in superstition and theory paved the way for his paranoia to flourish, leaving the door open for only further manipulation. When I knew him Howard was a skilled spiritual medium that sought love yet compromised his integrity to experience it. He went beyond his own boundaries largely because he didn’t know their value or his part in establishing them and he lost trust in his real friends. There are many factors in Howard’s case, but a primary one that translates to all individuals regardless of age, occupation or personal philosophy, is the importance of healthy boundaries (energetic and otherwise) and the ability to discern them. I’d be remiss not to address one of Howard’s theories about the roles and relationships our guides have. While they have many functions in our lives, and protection is part of it, they respect free will and advise and influence to that realization. To put it another way: would you blame your parents for the intestinal discomfort you feel for the junk food you ate at a friend’s birthday party or consider that the choice to eat it (or not) was yours to make? Think about it. Homework! 1. Meditate. Grant yourself space for devotional ‘open time’, an opportunity to breathe with your own experience. Learn to melt and be present with your body and breathe. Learn to discern what feels in alignment with your own system. 2. Hydrate. Your entire system, including your ability to establish clear boundaries, depends on the circulation of the rivers of life: water. When the body is dehydrated survival becomes a (potentially distracting or integrity compromising) priority. Hydration helps to eliminate toxins, keep the body clear and the mind focused. Hydration helps to stabilize integrity. 3. Forgiveness. Holding a grudge is to hold pain and to limit freedom. It not only squanders precious energy it can invite negativity into your life. Regardless of the severity or seemingly trivial nature of the transgression or related grudge, forgive, forgive, and forgive. 4. Respect yourself. If you’re going against your morals and don’t recognize yourself, STOP! And recalibrate! Explore your behavior with an open and non-judgmental mind. Live with integrity. 5. Pay attention to your body. Your body is a key educator in your development and conduit with your own guides and other multidimensional beings. For example, if you feel light/lighter, joyous, grounded, full, warm, tingling, clear and are literally seeing more clearly from your human eyes, these are usually key indicators that you’re working/communicating with benevolent people/guides. If on the other hand you feel nauseated or threatened throughout your experience, find another friend! Was there a time you wanted to help a friend in distress that denied their issues or your honorable intentions? Was there a time when you were in need of help yet rejected concerned friends or family? Please share. Etiquette: Only mature and constructive comments directly related to the article’s topic are welcome. Published: 24 March 2014 Tuaca Kelly, spiritual teacher, medical intuitive and master healer serves to assist others in recognizing and developing their multidimensional consciousness and health, critical thinking skills, intuitive discernment, and realizing their soul potential. She lives in the Netherlands with her wife. For further insight visit: www.lovethemessenger.com. Read the Dutch translation. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) - USA Suïcidepreventie Crisistelefoonlijn 0900 0113 - Netherlands There was little about sitting in a bucket seat I found physically pleasurable especially after driving several hours in one. This extended sojourn began in Dana Point, CA and found finale in the San Francisco Bay Area. To endure I practiced all sorts of micro-movements, gentle swaying and improvised ‘Toyoga’ positions to competing sounds of gusting wind on interstate 5 and iTom Labs’ CD Atomic Consciousness. Adding prayers to my car dance I was mindful and grateful for the means, equipment and ability to drive, “Thank you. Thank you.” My gratitude increased with each progressive mile under the post-midnight and semi-rural, dark blue, star-speckled sky. She was beautiful if not magical. I loved it!
Still unfamiliar with the geography of my new neighborhood – I’d just moved and since I’d been traveling frequently to be in service and teach – landmarks and street names had great value yet little recognition for me. As I neared the highway exit bringing me closer to home my guides delivered a message, “I’ll be pulled over.” Upon hearing this I became unusually excited, instinctively checked my current speed and felt confident I was following the rules of the road. Maybe 3 minutes later sure enough I saw brilliant lights – red, blue, white – flashing from behind my trusty Japanese import. Funny I still I had, albeit a brief, ‘human moment’ wondering if the police car was for me. In that moment of internal processing. I remembered a message my guides gave me several months before: “When I get to California I’m going to help a local police department solve a murder case. Contact the chief when I arrive.” My excitement grew instantly. This was perfect! The officer had that patented ‘I’m a cop even when out of uniform’ swagger. “Ma’am, have you been drinking?” he nudged. “No sir, I don’t drink.” Apparently in the dark of night in semi-rural-ville splendor I had exited the unlit and quiet highway from or to the wrong lane? Oh. “Were you on your cell-phone?” Hearing this question I rejoiced taking it as confirmation: I was back in California! My phone had been turned-off, in my purse and in the passenger seat for hours. “No sir”, I assured him. “Yet I am very glad to meet you.” This perhaps surprised him? Excitedly I shared with him what I did as my life’s work/soul purpose, how my guides had just told me this meeting between us would take place then requested his captain’s contact information, please? When the words, “psychic medium” were absorbed by his conscious mind the expression on his face was priceless. His response, and the delivery of it, was poetry, “May I see your driver’s license, registration and proof of insurance?” The officer’s shadow followed his swaggering footsteps back to his American-made cruiser. Moments later his patrolling partner joined him to return my identifying paperwork. I’m not sure why this was necessary. Perhaps he’d been sitting a long time too? The officer asked me to be careful on the drive back home, “We wouldn’t anything to happen to you.” Before leaving we exchanged contact information. I suppose the officer was being protective when he spoke of his commander, “He is a very busy man and may not get back to you for a month.” My guides chimed in informing me that the commander would contact me the following day. I thanked him and made way to my toothbrush, flannel-sheets and cosmic travels. Some moment in-between morning meditation and a homemade raw tru-ogranic super-food breakfast smoothie boosted with positive vibrations from sacred geometry and loving intention I received the call. Following introductions the voice on the phone confessed he didn’t know what I was available for or open to yet he had an un-solved murder case and wondered if I could or would be willing to help. Absolutely! We met in person at the station. “The station”, that’s vague, eh? Perhaps this is a good moment to share that due to the nature of the case, combined with my client-confidentiality practice, names, places and badge numbers aren’t included? His demeanor was very kind his energy excited, warm and ‘open’, his attire was standard jacket and tie, trousers ankle-length - I could glimpse socks - and his hairstyle, shorn geometrically, was very “Joe Friday”. Pleasantries exchanged, his questions about the process were intelligent, thoughtful and sincere. The ‘download’ from my guides I began to receive about the case were immediate and plentiful. A visit from someone who had crossed also occurred. “Commander Joe” who didn’t expect us to work during that visit had to excuse himself to retrieve the case file. I took notes of the information I was receiving ready to convey them to “Joe” upon his prompt return. He was very skilled at introducing new evidence or people involved or thought to be involved and asking questions in response to what I was being shown from my guides to relay. Our interactive process was so smooth an on-looker could have thought we’d done this together before. I was very happy with our flow and after two-and-one-half-hours felt pretty complete with the initial chapter. Set to leave and re-hydrate my body – I consume a lot of water before, during and after channeling/working – “Joe” thanked me for my time and confirmation of his own senses, said he definitely had his homework, direction and much new and significant information to consider. We shook hands in kindness and as an afterthought he asked, “What happens next? Do I just call you again?” Quick to offer a response my guides instantly showed me an iconic pop-culture symbol synonymous with Bob Kane, one used by the fictional character Commissioner Gordon, so I went with it. “Yes, just throw up the ‘Bat Signal’ and I’ll be here. I’m happy to help. In reflection: as unusual as it may seem to be excited about being pulled-over by a squad car there maybe something greater at work. Our guides are always making connections helping to co-create opportunities for us to consider. Be open to the possibilities and be present in the process to make conscious choices. |
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