The Luminary Journal
By Tuaca Kelly

The weather couldn’t receive a complaint from me. The day possessed a warmth and grace that may have included the presence of California Grey Whales – just off the Big Sur, California coastline where I was standing at the time. I was 24-years old, outside in nature under the canopy of daylight stretching my legs. The stretch – to open my abductor muscles – is one I had executed numerous times in my martial art dojo and, at least for me, took some time to melt into despite intention or repetition. While ‘breathing’ through the exercise, a man (that would become one of my deeply valued craniosacral teachers) walked up to me, pointed his penetrating blue eyes directly into mine and said, without affect or apology: “It will always hurt.” Then he left my sphere of determination as smoothly as he arrived. 

His words found their reason immediately. I knew what he meant. I recognized it as truth. And in the following moments I would both accept and question the poetry I was gifted with. Life, and the growing pains therein, would have many experiences including bliss and discomfort; to concede was to quell suffering. I continued with my stretching to earn my way across the threshold.

Years later…

Late one night I felt an incredible force vibrate in my throat then fill my mouth. A bewildering interest consumed me as the rising pressure quickly inflated my cheeks. I could not contain whatever divinity was destined to emerge. Lead by a single plosive “puh” sound was an unrelenting stream of language. I began what is known as Praying in Tongues. My grandmother, also an intuitive woman of faith, had prayed in tongues. I never saw her do it, but I knew on the day she crossed over, in the moments I held her while her spirit ascended to ‘no in-between’, that I would have my own experience. And so it began. Although I’d not witnessed it before, I knew exactly what was happening. My body heat rose with the unprecedented message and the velocity in which it came. I was listener, conduit and observer simultaneously. Completely conscious I had the wherewithal to get my iPod and record what I could. As this incredible mix of consonants and vowels were pushing forth, I also understood what was being said. There was instantaneous translation. The key points from that message were to humans, about humans verbatim: “You make it so hard on yourselves. It doesn’t have to be so hard. We’re here to help.” The praying continued untimed. I was awestruck, grateful, fascinated and reverent.

Today…

Is a perfect moment to annihilate any preconceived notions about expansion of consciousness, transformative healing, growth and the process of becoming: it is work; it is one of the most valuable investments an individual can choose to make; and it can be absolutely excruciating and exhausting at times. Have no illusions about ‘spirituality’ for all emotions and experiences are integral to growth, to building character, to showing ourselves the individual one aspires to see and realize in the actions and thoughts they value.

This isn’t to say we have to suffer or go against the direction of ease. There is help and becoming a martyr isn’t the wish of the Sacred – but an educational fate for some, nonetheless. There is always an opportunity to shift course while headed toward a particular goal, to appreciate the hurdles with a new perspective, to accept their characteristics along with your ability and difficulties in learning to surmount them.

To echo the essence of the messages that were transmitted and downloaded to me in my schools of wisdom: life is experience, a precious one, and there is a peculiar relief in the act of confessing to the ardent or idealistic mind: it will always hurt and there is always help. Be gentle with yourself and others.

Homework:

1.      Listen to the ‘hurt’. Growing or building muscles (for example) comes with a price: you’re tearing muscle fiber each time you breach a new weight threshold. This maybe considered by some as a ‘good hurt’. If the pain has a different quality pay close attention to make sure you’re not causing unnecessary injury. In other words: do no harm.

2.      Ask for help. When a something is beyond your depth, stop, do nothing, see what comes. The next step maybe to ask for help. It is important to recognize boundaries in any profession or relationship. (This builds integrity!)

3.      Have something to look forward to. Your vitality is related to your creativity and desire to grow. Make tangible plans for your self in which you can measure, validate and consciously breathe through the experience, (e.g., playing tennis with a friend once a week; take a language course; join a book club; meditate each day.

4.      Applaud your accomplishments. No matter how trivial the task may seem, acknowledge its completion and your care in performing it. This builds a positive attitude, alters your own brain chemistry and raises your energy.

When have you moved through pain and what did you learn from it? How do you recognize when you need help and how did you ask for it? Have you made yourself alone with a problem? What was the outcome? To place hurdles on your path on purpose to create challenges? Please share.

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Published: June 30, 2014

Tuaca Kelly, spiritual teacher, medical intuitive and master healer serves to assist others in recognizing and developing their multidimensional consciousness and health, critical thinking skills, intuitive discernment, and realizing their soul potential. She lives in the Netherlands with her wife.

For further insight visit: www.lovethemessenger.com

The Luminary Journal
By Tuaca Kelly

Years ago I met a man – Howard I’ll call him – that had been a practicing spiritual medium for nearly 30-years. He came into his own awareness of other levels of consciousness after a teenage drug overdose. When his spirit was leaving his body, it did so in a way that wasn’t nurturing or comforting. It just felt ‘wrong’. Though he was looking for an exit from the depression and isolation he felt frequently in earth life, he realized that suicide wasn’t going to provide that relief. He immediately determined to return to his body. From this experience he would make the changes he needed to survive, reassemble and redirect his focus to find his purpose.

Though Howard had come a considerable way since his death experience, and helped many others in his professional practice, the information of his teenage trauma and all the pain that contributed to it, was still present in his system. Those stored experiences influenced his personal behavior significantly and many of his interactions were interlaced with shame. Howard subsisted largely on junk food, used non-beneficial substances ritually and frequently engaged in bare sexual activity with strangers. He was reckless.

Note: Before every session I meditate and pray as a way to prepare myself for work. I do this for many reasons (that may exceed the scope of this journal) including to fortify my ability to discern (information, influences and boundaries.) I must be emphatic here: this practice is paramount!

My guides brought many things to my awareness regarding Howard’s process, including my level of involvement. As much as I can see, feel and hear benevolent beings influencing and informing an individual, I can discern the unsavory and usurious entities that also exist. Seeing also the latter kind in Howard’s field, as not the sole but indeed a main contributor to his own demise, I approached him directly with care:

“How do you protect yourself?” I asked.

“Girl, I tell my guides to protect me,” he replied.

His response modeled the casual manor in which he took most things and it concerned me. Howard assumed that his responsibility to establish healthy boundaries was not his, but his guides. I told him of my concern but he gave no credence much less interest. His investment in superstition and theory paved the way for his paranoia to flourish, leaving the door open for only further manipulation.

When I knew him Howard was a skilled spiritual medium that sought love yet compromised his integrity to experience it. He went beyond his own boundaries largely because he didn’t know their value or his part in establishing them and he lost trust in his real friends.

There are many factors in Howard’s case, but a primary one that translates to all individuals regardless of age, occupation or personal philosophy, is the importance of healthy boundaries (energetic and otherwise) and the ability to discern them.

I’d be remiss not to address one of Howard’s theories about the roles and relationships our guides have. While they have many functions in our lives, and protection is part of it, they respect free will and advise and influence to that realization. To put it another way: would you blame your parents for the intestinal discomfort you feel for the junk food you ate at a friend’s birthday party or consider that the choice to eat it (or not) was yours to make? Think about it.

Homework!

1.      Meditate. Grant yourself space for devotional ‘open time’, an opportunity to breathe with your own experience. Learn to melt and be present with your body and breathe. Learn to discern what feels in alignment with your own system.

2.      Hydrate. Your entire system, including your ability to establish clear boundaries, depends on the circulation of the rivers of life: water. When the body is dehydrated survival becomes a (potentially distracting or integrity compromising) priority. Hydration helps to eliminate toxins, keep the body clear and the mind focused. Hydration helps to stabilize integrity.

3.      Forgiveness. Holding a grudge is to hold pain and to limit freedom. It not only squanders precious energy it can invite negativity into your life. Regardless of the severity or seemingly trivial nature of the transgression or related grudge, forgive, forgive, and forgive.

4.      Respect yourself. If you’re going against your morals and don’t recognize yourself, STOP! And recalibrate! Explore your behavior with an open and non-judgmental mind. Live with integrity.

5.      Pay attention to your body. Your body is a key educator in your development and conduit with your own guides and other multidimensional beings. For example, if you feel light/lighter, joyous, grounded, full, warm, tingling, clear and are literally seeing more clearly from your human eyes, these are usually key indicators that you’re working/communicating

with benevolent people/guides. If on the other hand you feel nauseated or threatened throughout your experience, find another friend!

Was there a time you wanted to help a friend in distress that denied their issues or your honorable intentions?  Was there a time when you were in need of help yet rejected concerned friends or family? Please share.

Etiquette: Only mature and constructive comments directly related to the article’s topic are welcome.

Published: 24 March 2014

Tuaca Kelly, spiritual teacher, medical intuitive and master healer serves to assist others in recognizing and developing their multidimensional consciousness and health, critical thinking skills, intuitive discernment, and realizing their soul potential. She lives in the Netherlands with her wife.

For further insight visit: www.lovethemessenger.com. Read the Dutch translation.

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline Call 1-800-273-TALK (8255) - USA
 Suïcidepreventie Crisistelefoonlijn 0900 0113 - Netherlands