Earlier this week a medical procedure I elected to have was performed by a team of four women. I wasn't expecting such a party yet I was very pleased that each woman was warm, friendly and professional.
Before going in, the doctor informed me of the two steps involved in the operation. The first would possibly include the use of local anesthesia, the second general anesthesia, something she knew in advance I didn't want.
Respecting my wishes she was still obliged, understandably so, to make sure I knew this was usually performed under general anesthesia, that it could be very painful, "You won't remember anything." she said.
Me: "I want to remember everything!"
She agreed to move forwards without.
During the first step of the procedure, I felt my body go into shock.
Me: "My body is going into shock."
Me: "I'm starting to sweat and my hearing is fading. My body is going into shock."
Doctor: "That's common."
She gave assurance I wouldn't fall on the floor. I didn't think I would but I took great comfort in her attention, communication and initiative.
Doctor: "Do you feel as though you are going to pass out?"
Me: "Yes, but I'm not going to."
I was fascinated by the (uncomfortable) experience and feeling about pain and the survival mechanisms of my body.
She gave me a local anestetic and made one more plea for me to consider the general.
Doctor: "We have 30-minutes left. If we use the anesthesiologist I have to call them now."
I want to remember everything.
We began without general.
I closed my eyes and called a meeting with my guides, angels and other people in XD reality/in spirit close to me.
Doctor: "How are you? Still with us?"
I gave a 'thumbs up' gesture.
My multidimensional meeting brought immense joy and gratitude, and a smile to my face. I had permagrin throughout. At one point I laughed out loud.
Doctor: Was that a laugh?
Me: "Yes!", I managed with a wiggling thumb and giggle.
There was one stream/visit that brought many people I've had the privilege to help with their health. I smiled more, seeing so many faces and people I care about, I was feeling so happy. And as I reviewed these faces... it struck me: they care about me too. It was quite a revelation.
Doctor: How are you doing? Still with us?
Me: (Thumb up)
Doctor: "You're doing amazing!"
Me: (Smiling. Yeah, I am. So are you!)
When the operation was done. I sat up, raised my arms in the air, "Yahoo! We did it!"
One doctor made distinct eye contact with me and said, "We've never done this before. We ALWAYS use general anesthesia."
She began an investigation, asking what I did experience during the proceedure and how I felt in the moment. Her questions found my appreciation.
I left the table to retrieve my clothes. They weren't wear I left them.
Woman: "I moved them here." She pointed to the recovery bed.
(But that bed wouldn't be used by me. No general anesthesia, no purpose for the bed.)
I got dressed and thanked each person. They really did a good job and it was nice to be cared for.
Upon saying goodbye, the doctor said, "I will remember you."
I'll remember them too!
My bliss and grace carried me home. I made myself a cup of tea, crawled into bed, and passed out.
Thank you doctors, guides, my body and the kitten that sat right on the operation site, to purr. Yeah team!
THANK YOU for the collective conversation and eternal work.
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